race to the middle

increasingly, i find heterosexuality distateful.

i have spent the last few days reading about sexuality in a global perspective, and it seems undeniable at this point that western heterosexuality is an unfortunate construction at best, and doomed to eventual collapse. more and more, as the forced nature of sexual conformity is called into question by queer movements, it seems likely that a future pansexuality will come into existence.
my only fear is that the institution will respond to this threat with a plethora of well-defined categories, as bi-sexual, homosexual, transsexual, etc become ever-more acceptable modes of being.
this, to me, would be tragic. ideally, the near future would see a generally "queer" mode of being come into existence where insecure and purposefully undefined sexual identity was the norm. this would eventually emerge as a preeminent, defying heterosexual hegemony to create an institution which constantly questioned itself to produce ever-more perfect forms.
for the time being, though, heterosexuality continues to put an end to constructive insecurities; its default status provides the ultimate justification.

on a more personal level, however, i find heterosexuals distasteful. those individuals who want nothing more than typicality, for whom mediocrity is the ultimate goal, and who find comfort in their utter unremarkableness find themselves at home in a stagnant and plebeian way of life.
and i am not merely jealous. i, too, want some of this stability, but it must be wrestled with and arrived at by choice. when this doesn't happen, the tensions created by eternally postponing questioning create an unnecessarily harsh environment for those of us on the margins of this unfortunately turbulent institution.